Thank You

I just want to say thank you for accepting me, for making my life and planetary journey richer! You are all a blessing to me and I know that God will bless each of you for making my life all the better!

No Weapon

It's amazing how you can be in the throws of what may seem like an impossible place, yet in those moments God reaches down and gives you a word, or reveals something to you in His holy word. Many people here, that read this blog on a regular basis, don't know who I am, nor will they ever really get to know me. Recently I was taken to court under the pretense of "stalking." Praise God the charges were dismissed.

But just last week I went to church, and the daughter of my accusers was sitting there, in front of me, in my panic I started to have a shortness of breath, I couldn't think, I honestly had a panic attack in church! Then all of the sudden, out of no where, I heard "No weapon formed against you will prosper!" The words of Isaiah 54:17...comfort immediately flooded into my life.

When I came home I read Isaiah 54:16-17, it says "See, it is I who created the blacksmith, who fans the coals into flame and forges a weapon fit for its work. And it is I who have created the destroyer to work havoc; (17) No weapon forged against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you. For this is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and this is their vindication from me," declares the LORD."

It's so amazing that while I was in my panic that God had already promised to deliever me from the wicked words and weapons of my enemy.

When you are feeling like you can't make it thorugh, God will bring you a word from his torehouse and you too, can have find peace through Jesus Christ.

Stumbling and Tumbling Towards God Part 1

It's funny how we as Christains often times will become stumbling blocks for others. But what happens, when we become stumbling blocks for other Chrsitains? Is there anything we can do? And what if our own issues are causing us to stumble?
I can't lie, For the past year, I have felt completely distant from God, and blame it on getting into some situations that have ended up really hurting me in the end. The one promise that I have leaned on during this time comes from Romans 8:37 "No, in all these things we are more than Conquerors through him who loved us."
I am finally deciding to learn more about the fact that I am stumbling and tumbling towards God, and will be sharing some thoughts on the matter. Join me?

New Life

So much has happened in the past few months, the main thing is that my grandfather passed away. This has given me time to learn new things and experience different parts of my emotional make-up like never before. In doing so it's also allowed me to rely on God much more...and this has been the blessing.
When it seems that nothing else will work, rely on God, for only He can do things for you...and change your heart aches into praises!

God is with You

No matter where you are in life, God is there with you!

Mercy

"Mercy came running, like a prisoner set free, past all my failures to the point of my need."

Yes, Mercy has come running. I realized last night that just as Kambi has shown me mercy numerous times, that I must show David the same mercy and kindness. I have documented what happened last night at the coffee shop and will be keeping a "log" of any other happenings...but mercy and forgiveness has been shown this time.

Forgivness...worth the sweet consequences

I must give praises to God Almighty today. Just last week I asked my Fellowship Group to pray that I'd be able to ask someone to forgive me for wrongs that I had done. One woman, said "you ever think maybe its not time, since that person keeps rejecting you? I mean the Holy Spirit doesn't just lead you into something and not know the outcome." Another said, "What if Rachel, is being obedient, what if the other person just isn't listening to what the Spirit is telling her?" Needless to say I had sided with the latter of the two.
Feeling quite distressed though, I went to therapy on Thursday and told my therapist, "Look, she can either speak to me on earth and forgive me or not. Either way the jokes on her, because she has to spend eternity with me." Larking about is my way of dealing with rejection, preceived or otherwise.
Today, I got up about 20 mins too late to go to church, but decided to go anyway. I thought, "Well I'll just leave early and come home and do my tests for school, then go to work." When the time came for me to leave, I couldn't budge. I tried every rational I could think of to get me out of that seat and into my car to come home. "I wasn't going to take communion, so why stay for it?" "I just didn't feel like being at church." "Well I came to the sermon, so why stay afterwards and talk to everyone?" Praise be to God, that I did stay, because while I was talking to someone about my student loan refunds that I had gotten, I the person I wanted to apologize walked in and said, "Sorry to interupt, but what did you want last week?" My heart leapt and I said, "Come over here, let's talk." Now I had a whole speech planned for the apology...but all I could say was "I'm Sorry." When asked for what, all I could say was "For everything." She told me all was forgiven, but that we wouldn't be friends. As she felt gunshy about me (and with good reason). Now that did come as a shock, but what was more was when she said to me, "Look, I need to apologize to you too." I mean you could have knocked me over with a feather, I said, "For what?" nearly laughing, and crying at the same time, she said, "For the way I handled things, I didn't mean to alienate you, I should have just said, back off." We spoke, because I told her I wanted us to be civil to each other, that I knew we couldn't be friends. Then I cried all the way home...matter of fact, if I fail my psychology and biblical survey tests, it's because I am so happy right now that I got something off my chest and I realize that while I may not be good at relationships, I serve a God who can take my messups and fix them.
So today, as I give praises to God, I have to say "I AM NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT I THANK GOD I AM NOT WHERE I USED TO BE!"